Chapter 1174 - Scared To Hurt
Lu Lijun's sight, his voice, and the way he held her closer and tightly made it obvious to understand what goes in one man's mind. She could feel the warmth of his palm on her back even though her clothes seemed unusual if it was not a fever.
"Y-you should rest," she said calmly, not trying to get out of his hold. If she tried, she knew he would use more force to hold her tightly, and already there was no space left between their bodies.
Her words fell on deaf ears as the cold guy continued to gaze at her face intently as his sight wandered from her eyes to her lips—his one hand holding her hand while the other surrounded her back.
"I tried to stay away from you, listen to everything you say so everything would go fine, and I won't trouble you, but you seem not to like it."
"I..am..just worried for you…too much work..." She struggled for words.
"Just one night without you could make me like this. If I don't busy myself with work, I don't know what I will do with you."
Jiang Yuyan gulped, understanding the meaning, and said, "Still, you eat..."
"I plan to," he said, the underlying meaning clear to her.
"Office hours…"
"I want to forget it for today," he said, his intense sight conveyed his intentions, disregarding all her reasons.
"You can go back to work," she said in a low voice.
"After I get what I want," he said, and the next moment sealed her lips with his.
"Lu Lijun..umm…" the words she wanted to say choked in her throat as one man in the heat didn't seem to bother with it.
He held her tightly and kissed her roughly, his breath and his skin hot as if he had a high fever. Sucking and nibbling her lips, he pushed his tongue inside her cavern, and Jiang Yuyan couldn't stop him.
He never did it before as he always ended up playing with her lips, but this time he seemed greedy. His aggressive tongue sought for hers and didn't let it go. His coarse tongue rolled with her soft and sweet one that aroused him even more.
He was so aggressive that there was no way she could stop him, but she tried to keep up with it as her hands clutched tightly on his suit's jacket.
Soon she felt her tongue go numb, but the aggressive man didn't seem to care as he kept assaulting it. There was a change in his body that he didn't mind this time and didn't wish to hide.
Lu Lijun lifted her while kissing and made her sit on the breakfast table as he pushed the things on it aside with his one hand. His hand resting on her back moved up to the back of her neck that made her look up so he could kiss her comfortably.
All along, Jiang Yuyan could only struggle to breathe, not knowing how to stop him.
Breathless, he stopped but stayed like that as he rested his forehead on hers, trying to resist the urge he felt at the moment.
Jiang Yuyan finally got a moment to breathe as her mind already turned hazy due to the suffocation.
Trying hard to breathe, she tried to get down from the coffee table, but Lu Lijun blocked her. She didn't look at him but spoke, "Enough now."
He made her look up at him and stared into her eyes as he wiped her wet lips with his thumbs gently, "I haven't taken you to the bed or couch yet." His voice was calm but his intentions looked scary.
It made her heart beat faster. Whatever she would say, there would be no use. The only thing she could do was to curse herself for stopping him when he was leaving and showing her care to him. 'Why did I always end up like this? I am the one to blame for it now,' she thought.
She lowered her head and sat silently, not knowing what to do, and could only hope he would stop here. She averted her sight from him as her eyes didn't fail to notice that slight change in his body. She was not a naive girl from when she came to China years back. She was once a married woman and was aware of everything about men.
Seeing her silently, Lu Lijun got back to his senses and started to fix the loose hair strands that came out due to his intense activity with her a while ago. He allowed her to get down from the table and stand.
She still didn't look at him but felt relieved he got back to his senses, and it was over. She was about to leave, but Lu Lijun held her hand to stop her, which caught her off guard and made her feel, 'What now.' She turned anxious to think he would do something again.
Though she didn't look at him, Lu Lijun's sight never stopped staring at her. He hugged her and said, "I didn't mean to do this, but I couldn't stop...I don't know what to do..."
Jiang Yuyan didn't know what to say to him either.
"I feel like I will go crazy if I don't see you, and If I do, then I end up doing this...More I try to stop; it turns worse," he said, his eyes closed as if trying to bear the pain.
Jiang Yuyan stood still, hearing what he said. He was genuinely sharing it with her but there was no way she could help him with it.
"I am scared I might hurt you," he said, and Jiang Yuyan gulped to even think about it.
Jiang Yuyan collected her thoughts and said, "I know you can never hurt me." Her voice, gentle and assuring.
"What if I do?" he asked, not letting her go.
"I trust you," she said.
Lu Lijun couldn't argue over her trust in him and let her go. She should have been angry with him after what he did, but she tried to understand him.
He seemed to be calm, and she spoke while looking at him. "We have an important meeting regarding your new project. We can't be late."
She seemed so gentle, like coaxing a kid.
Lu Lijun nodded lightly. "I'll be out in a while."
She patted his arm, "Take your time," and left.
Lu Lijun sat on the couch as he tried to relax. Her gentle and coaxing words had already done it, but he wanted to take his time to calm himself so that he could go for the meeting with a clear mind.
Jiang Yuyan, who acted calm and composed while coaxing him, felt like a rock a had lifted from her chest the moment she stepped out of the lounge and could breathe normally.