Chapter 458 leave him
The rain that covered Imperial subdue as its heaviness turn into sprinkles.
Inside Imperial Military Hospital, there was a crowd gathered outside a private ward. Even a line is formed as the members of Wolf Team took their turn to enter.
Yue Ling sat up on the bed as Lu Tian sat by her side with Grandfather Ji and Madam Lu. As the members of Wolf Team made their way to wish her a full and speedy recovery.
However, as each person left, the room slowly began to pile with all kinds of flower bouquets.
Until the last person exit the room, Yue Ling sighed in relief.
She had just woken up not too long ago and was already met with such a heart warm welcoming. Even she didn't know whether to laugh or cry because she never thought the members of Wolf Team to be so caring and generous.
Of course, Yue Ling didn't know that it was only towards her as their lady boss that they acted this way.
After what happened, they all swore to protect her even if it meant losing their life.
Turning to look at Lu Tian, she gives him a faint smile.
"Thank you."
Lu Tian sighs an apologetic smile to her. He did not expect such a scene from his men. However, seeing them this way shows that they approve and care about Yue Ling's health.
Surprisingly, he didn't eat any jars of vinegar.
As the room quiets down, Grandfather Ji and Madam Lu secretly glance at one another. Understanding each other's thoughts, they stood up at the same time.
Madam Lu: "I need to run some errands. Yue Ling do you want me to get anything for you?"
Grandfather Ji: "Doctor Dong wanted to see me. I'll use this time to find him."
Hearing their sudden words, Yue Ling was dumbfounded, but she nods her head in understanding. She smiles to her grandfather then looks at Madam Lu.
"Thank you, but I don't need anything."
Madam Lu smiles to her daughter-in-law as she sighs inside, "You just woke up, I'll buy some soup for you."
Both the elders walks out of the room, leaving only Yue Ling and Lu Tian alone inside.
Lu Tian stares at his wife in silence before he reach to hold her hand. He sat so close to the bed that the moment he bent towards her, he was able rest his head on her lap.
Everything still felt like a dream to him. He slowly close his eyes and part his lip.
"I'm sorry…"
His hand tightens on hers and his lower lip slightly trembles.
"I'm sorry I couldn't protect you both…"
Yue Ling looks down at him and a faint smile curl on her lip.
The moment she woke up, the only thing he said was her name. He kept calling to her as if he was in a dream. When she wanted to answer him, everyone had rushed into the room to see her.
Thinking this, she lifts her other hand and gently stroke his head.
"Tian… What happened was not your fault."
Her fingers ran through his hair as she gaze down at him. No one told her, but the moment she opened her eyes, she already knew that she lost her little one.
"Our child will not want to see you this way."
Truth be told, knowing that their little one is gone, she feels empty inside. Like a part of her had disappear from this world.
However, something inside is also telling her to hold it together, but for how long can she?
Is it because everyone is here that her tears do not want to show?
Hearing her words, Lu Tian slowly open his eyes and lifts his head to look at her. He held her hand with both his hands and press it against his forehead.
"Because of my carelessness, I put you in harm and our child paid the price…"
He tightens his hands around hers as his words continue.
"If you feel I am not worthy of you, I will get out of your sight. I will never appear in front of you again. If you tell me to die, I am willing to give my life to you."
Hearing his words, Yue Ling felt aching pain struck her heart like lightning. It was so painful that the air around her was hard to breathe in.
Their child who had yet to see the world was taken from her and she hadn't even decided on a name for him or her.
The most painful thing is, what if they move on with life?
What about their child?
Who else will remember their child?
Her hand slowly pulls away from his grasp as she stares at him with eyes of emptiness.
Was it really Lu Tian's carelessness that this happened?
Does she blame him for the loss of their child?
Will his death bring their child back?
Feeling her hand out of his reach, he froze in place without moving.
It was like the universe shook him by the shoulder as it makes its way into his heart.
His eyes slowly look at her and when he saw the emptiness in her bluish green eyes, he knew that what he did not want to happen is going to happen.
She is going to leave him.
He had prepared himself for this, but even if it was only a little, he had hope that with that little bit of hope, it can overcome her decision.
But is it really his place to even wish for something like this?
If she wants to put the blame on anyone for their child's death, then it can only be him.
Yue Ling gaze at the man in silence without realizing that her silence was putting pain and fear right into his heart.
Slowly lifting her hand, her palm touches the side of his face.
"Tian… it was not your carelessness that our child was taken from us."
Her eyes remain on his face and she felt an aching pain inside her as she can see all the pain and hurt in his eyes.
"I do not blame you nor am I angry with you, so stop blaming yourself."
Moving her hand from his cheek, her fingers slowly stroke his hair back as her eyes follows every outline of his face.
"The love we have for our child is proof that our child was real."
She sighs a very faint smile as her words continue.
"You once told me, if I am a curse, then I am your curse…"
Her hand gently caress his cheek and her smile widens ever so lightly.
"If I am still your curse, then let us get through this curse together."
Lu Tian was unable to get a word out. Everything she was saying was not what he had anticipated.
However, it was like all the weigh on his shoulders had been lifted and the hundreds of sandbags tied to his ankles had been cut away.
The knot inside his heart slowly return to its original form, but despite all that feeling, his lower lip still tremble.
He place his hand over her hand that was on his cheek and he held it tightly.
"I'm sorry…"
His shoulders tremble and the sound of struggling to breath against the emotions swirling within him as streaks of fire burn down his cheeks.
"Yue Ling, I am so sorry…"
He had told himself that he would be strong when she wakes up, but the moment she spoke those forgiving words to him, it was like all the feelings that had built up inside him broke free.
From the moment they met, Yue Ling had only saw the cold and aloof side to him, but seeing him this way, the heart throbbing ache inside her heart intensify as she stares at him sob his pain away.
Allowing him to pour all his tears out, Yue Ling quietly pat his head like a mother soothing her child.
Life is indeed too unfair to them.
They didn't even get to meet their little one and the heavens already took him or her away from them.
However, even with their child gone, their timeless is as timeless as their love for their child.
For every time they think of their child, he or she will be right there in their heart.