110 *Accepting her everything* [R-18]
The receptionist looked at us who stood too close and like a sage, she nodded.
p、A,nd A-n、o、ve,1
After showing her an ID card, I booked the deluxe room till the afternoon.
Mitshua looked around with her eyes which had become big due to excessive crying. It was the first time for her to spend the night away from home.
Seeing the receptionist and sweeper looking at us with those ambiguous eyes, Mitshua’s face was as red as a tomato.
Along the way, the hands we were holding seemed to provide enough solace to calm her shy heart.
The door of the room was unlocked~
Her heartbeat increased, but with Elandor taking the lead she followed him inside.
To be honest, my mind was in a fix on whether to sleep with Mitshua or not! I wanted to take things slow but because of the situation, I had to follow such a plan causing her to be hurt more than needed.
Now it was urgent! I had created such a big void in her heart by directly wiping all traces of Shouta. If I do not move in to take that position inside her heart, then the gates of her heart will shut permanently and she will become indifferent and will become scared to ever be in a relationship and all my efforts would be in vain.
I needed her to transfer all her feelings to me.
There was not much need for foreplay as her body was too exhausted to take so much stimulus on her first time.
“Hey Mitshua, What do you see in my eyes?”
I turned her around and tenderly held her shoulders.
She looked for one full minute. Her eyes were deep.
It is said that the eyes are like a mirror, a window to another soul. If you can’t guess if others are telling the truth or not, just look into their eyes. Their eyes will never lie. They will reflect the deepest desires hidden in them.
And, Mitshua saw it.
“Possessiveness, selfishness, a strong desire to monopolise….”
“….and sheer obsessiveness.”
As she whispered slowly her tone started changing from crisp to soft. The distance between us was too close…the occasional short breath she exhaled, fell directly on my face as we both felt the temperature of the room start to increase.
“Elandor, I-I feel too vulnerable. I…I-I feel too scared”, there was a little bit of helplessness in the way she spoke, she was scared that Elandor, just like Shouta, only liked her beauty. The fear that she would be abandoned or cheated was starting to scare her. She didn’t know if she could be in a normal relationship ever again?
“Mitshua, listen- To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully around with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable but if it becomes like that you will completely become someone else. You will no longer be Mitshua. To love is to be vulnerable. If you are still not sure then lend your heart to me. With me, I will keep it safe, secure ,and locked so that you will never have to worry about it being broken ever again.”
Her eyes widened as a sweet smile blossomed on her tired face.
She put her arms around me and pushed her lips a little upwards, a little forward.
This time she wanted to take the initiative. Elandor said he wanted to keep her heart tight and secure with him so she shall give her heart to him.
Like an interlude before a rainy night, a pair of lips, big and small overlapped.
The feelings were mutual. This time Mitshua felt, and tried to understand Elandor’s emotions to the fullest.
She wanted to feel if what he said was real.
She wanted to feel that she was desired, that she was needed~
“Aah, this smell…I will never get tired of it.”
“Mitshua, you have become my drug.”
The kiss which started from a simple peck became deep within a fraction of a second.
“Oh, Elandor”, Mitshua started panting.
There was no need to fight for dominance, both of us sucked and tasted each other’s saliva.
The sound of slurping echoed throughout the room.
“Elandor, I’m also selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make lots of mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle.”
“Shhh!”
I put my finger on her lips.
“Mitshua, I know….”
“…..I know because I am the same.”
Our tongues no longer remained in our mouths as I tasted her eyelids, her earlobes, her little nose…..her cheeks, my tongue ran down to her neck. It was like my body instinctively wanted to leave my trace all over her.
Her arms quivered as her shoulders trembled at getting so much attention. But she did not deny it.
This only made her heart beat faster, telling her that everything was real, telling her how much Elandor was serious about her.
“Mitshua, I must tell you there are a lot of secrets that I hide. So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s going to be really hard; we’re gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you.”
The beads of sweat all over our skin, and glossy lips which showed how much saliva we both sucked made the atmosphere more alluring.
We kissed once~
Twice…
Thrice…..
Only when we were sure that we have engraved each other’s taste in the deepest parts of our minds did we separate.
“E-Elandor, it’s getting hard for me to hold on”
Mitshua’s eyes were blurred, her female hormones already flooded her entire system as if it was a mating call.
Without wasting any time, I lifted her and carried her to bed.