Chapter 344 - Chapter 344: Love Is One Point More Than Hate
Chapter 344: Love Is One Point More Than Hate
Translator: Dragon Boat Translation Editor: Dragon Boat Translation
“If I were a woman, I wouldn’t give him a chance. One bullet could take care of both. No one should expect to survive. My brother didn’t want any regrets, and he has one last thing to say. He wants me to tell you that when he gets out, he’ll personally speak with you. If one day he really dies, it won’t be too late for you to join him in the grave.”
Ji Chi seemed like a treasure hunter who had suddenly found a treasure. He had faced countless hardships, traversed treacherous terrain, and risked his life in search of this treasure. Just when he was on the brink of despair, a ray of light appeared from the heavens, and the treasure was right before his eyes. He had achieved his goal and had no regrets.
Gu Ci looked at his expression and knew that her mission had been accomplished. Ji Chi wouldn’t act recklessly anymore. Gu Ci pushed the door and left, leaving Ji Chi alone. At the end of the corridor, Lu Zhiyuan was waiting for her.
Lu Zhiyuan stood against the light, his face blurry, but Gu Ci knew it was him. They had a strange aura between them. In fact, when they were children, she had a special fondness for Lu Zhiyuan. It was as if she had a destined affection for him. She had grown up being overlooked, never receiving any special affection except from Lu Zhiyuan. From beginning to end, he only liked her.
He was her guiding light.
So, when she lost him later, she held onto it with bitterness and resentment. She couldn’t reconcile with Lu Zhiyuan’s fickle affection. Why did his favor come and go so easily?
After regaining what she had lost, that feeling of joy upon seeing him, the warmth in her heart, returned.
He was her obsession from childhood to adulthood.
If it was destiny, she could only accept it.
Gu Ci’s heart raced, and she felt a sudden, intense pain. She saw Lu Zhiyuan rushing toward her, emerging from the backlight. Gu Ci’s lips curled slightly, and she fainted in his arms.
“Cid!” Lu Zhiyuan carried her in his arms and shouted urgently, “Call a doctor!”
Li Jiang heard the commotion and quickly went to fetch a doctor.
Lu Zhiyuan held her, and the young girl in his arms felt as light as a feather, almost like a piece of paper. She had become extremely thin during this period, and it pained him deeply.
The doctor’s diagnosis matched his own judgment. Gu Ci’s condition was due to excessive fatigue, mild malnutrition, and excessive stress, resulting in a deficiency of both qi and blood. Qin Wan, who had come with Gu Ci, truthfully explained her recent condition to the doctor.
“She usually sleeps for only three or four hours. I don’t know if she falls asleep at all. She has no appetite for food, just drinks water. Oh, and she frequently takes medication on an empty stomach. Dr. North and 1 have advised her many times, but the effect has been minimal,” Qin Wan sighed with concern. “She’s heartbroken, you know? It’s understandable that she’ll feel miserable for a while and endure some suffering.”
Lu Zhiyuan remained silent.
Li Jiang thought to himself, Qin Wan was definitely doing this on purpose!
“She’s even drinking excessively!” Qin Wan said. “Dr. North suggested a glass of red wine before bedtime, and she drinks a whole bottle. I had a classmate who went through a breakup and drank heavily for half a month, getting drunk every day. Sigh…”
Gu Ci’s face was pale, she looked pitifully thin, with heavy dark circles under her eyes. In addition to the doctor’s diagnosis, there was no need for Qin Wan to say it; anyone with eyes could see that Gu Ci had been going through a tough time.
“You all should leave for now!” Lu Zhiyuan took a towel, wiped the sweat from Gu Ci’s forehead, and gave a cold dismissal order. Li Jiang escorted Qin Wan out and considerately closed the door.
After Lu Zhiyuan put down the towel, his fingers gently brushed over her face. He lifted Gu Ci’s sleeve and examined her arms, which were covered in bruises, clearly not from accidental bumps but more like self-inflicted marks.
With a moment’s thought, he unbuttoned her shirt. Gu Ci was wearing jeans, and Lu Zhiyuan averted his gaze, as he had expected. Underneath the gauze on her legs, he saw the wounds that Gu Ci had repeatedly made with a knife, with cuts deep enough to expose flesh. Lu Zhiyuan clenched his teeth, and his forehead perspired slightly.
He felt anger, but he also felt helpless.
Heartache mixed with sorrow.
On her thighs, there were multiple gauze bandages, and some old scars. Her self-harm had been going on for months, and there was no improvement.
“Cici, what should 1 do with you?” Lu Zhiyuan held her hand and kissed it near his lips.
She was his precious treasure, but this treasure was too fragile, like a piece of ice, and his hands were too scorching. He wanted to hold onto this treasure, but he knew that in his palm, she would eventually melt away.
He had no choice but to let her go, hoping that she would get better. However, this precious treasure of his was still gradually fading, and he could do nothing about it.
For so many years, he had thought of countless ways to resolve this fate’s entanglement, but he had never been able to untangle it. He had never given up, and Lu Zhiyuan thought back to their first lifetime.
Gu Ci had always been like the sun, resilient and unwavering, with a determined will. Even when she knew it was a dead end, she was like a moth, knowing that the fire would be fatal, but she still spread her wings and flew high, smiling brightly as she rushed toward him. Even if she didn’t get close to him and her wings were burnt off by the fire, even if her body was consumed by the flames, she did it without hesitation.
Her love and hatred were both extreme!
What she wanted in love and hatred was also extreme!
He used to despise the gods, but now he only wanted to kneel and beg for guidance, to find a way to end this endless tragedy.
Gu Ci was receiving an IV, and though she had lost consciousness, she seemed far from peaceful. She mumbled to herself, and Lu Zhiyuan leaned closer to listen to her words. “Lu Zhiyuan, don’t leave me alone. Take me with you, even if it’s death, 1 want to die by your side. Don’t leave me alone.”
Lu Zhiyuan’s heart ached. “Cici…”
Don’t be like this, Cici!
He had tried, he had tried in the previous lifetime, but what was the outcome?
Lu Zhiyuan asked Ji Chi, “What did Jiang Junlin do? Do you hate him?”
“I’ll never truly hate him,” his hatred was a result of love unfulfilled. “I have hated, but love always outweighs hatred, even by a fraction.”
“Think again, what if he gets married?” Lu Zhiyuan said. “What if he falls in love with someone else and marries them? Would you hate him then?”
“That would be simpler,” Ji Chi replied. “Let’s die together. Why hate? To be tormented for no reason, I won’t live such a life. If he falls in love with someone else, either he dies, or I die!”
Lu Zhiyuan couldn’t quite understand this group of people with such twisted psychology.
He could think of even the most absurd ways, but Ji Chi had blocked every single one of those paths. Ji Chi and Gu Ci were too similar, and his thoughts were likely mirrored by hers.
“Isn’t living worthwhile?” Lu Zhiyuan asked.
“What’s the point of living like a walking corpse?” Ji Chi shrugged. “Third Master, if you want to get married and break Miss Gu Ci’s heart, 1 advise you to think twice.”
Lu Zhiyuan had considered such a possibility, but unfortunately, Ji Chi had blocked that path as well.
Gu Ci’s sleep was restless, and in the late afternoon, she regained consciousness. When she opened her eyes, the first thing she saw was Lu Zhiyuan sitting by her side, his gaze burning with intensity as he looked at her..
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