Chapter 322
322 it’s because i feel insecure
“even if she doesn’t want to see me or forgive me, i’ll go find her. i don’t want to stay in the shi family anymore, yingluo.”
“now that boran has the power of the shi family, no one will be able to force yanyan to come back.”
“but i won’t force her to come back. she can live wherever she wants to. i’ll stay wherever she is. i’ve had enough, i want to go find my daughter, i want to go back to the su family, i miss my sister!”
if the Shi family still doesn’t allow me to see my daughter, then let’s get a divorce. I’m not going to be the First Lady of the Shi family. The Shi family won’t be able to control me.
when shi lin heard her words, his heart seemed to be clenched by something.
her daughter’s gentleness followed her.
the gentle person who had left the familiar city and gave up the familiar working environment just to be with him and came to live in this strange city with him was now forced to take the initiative to say the word ‘divorce’.
All these years, because she was worried about him and her two sons, she allowed herself to live under the surveillance of the Shi family. She could not even contact her daughter.
there’s no need to get a divorce. You can go wherever you want. After I hand over the rest of my Affairs to Boran, I’ll go find you and your mother.
” wanwan, i’m very sorry. i married you, but i didn’t take good care of you, my daughter, and even my two sons. ”
Su Wan could smell the smoke on him.
He didn’t smoke in the past.
she gently let go of him and held his hand, saying, ” ” you’re in charge of such a big family. you have your own responsibilities and concerns. i don’t blame you. ”
“That’s just an excuse. Now that my son is in power, he won’t be controlled like me.”
The entire Shi family was harmonious. He was destined to take over the Shi family since he was born. There was no power struggle between brothers in the Shi family, so he did not value power much since he was young. Later, when he came to power, the power in the family was too scattered, causing everyone to have a say in the family, which led to the situation of his daughter being forced to leave the house like that year.
if he had all the power in his hands, even if he had agreed to the marriage, his daughter might not have left so decisively when he chased her to the door and asked her to stay.
she had left so resolutely because she knew that even if she stayed this time, she would still be forced to do things she didn’t like in the future.
In the end, it was all because he didn’t have enough power as a father.
If he, the head of the Shi family, had the same power as the Jiang family, the Xie family, and the Xuan family, the head of the family had absolute power and the right to speak, he would not have failed to protect his daughter.
his daughter could not even get a basic sense of security from her father, which was why she had chosen to leave so resolutely.
no one else could give her a sense of security, so she had to choose to protect herself.
that year, his daughter was only ten years old. only ten years old!
in terms of gathering power, his son was better than him.
his son before the age of 18 might have had the same thoughts as him and did not value power.
however, when his son was 18 years old, his sister was forced to leave the family by the whole family. from then on, he distanced himself from the family and recognized the importance of power.
His ten-year-old daughter had earned tens of millions on her own.
his daughter had never been short of money since she was young, and she was so indifferent that she didn’t care about money and other external things. logically speaking, she shouldn’t have the thought of earning money alone at such a young age.
but she had it, and she even put it into action and earned a lot.
she did not even have any connections with the shi family to earn money. she did not use any money related to the shi family. she learned all the ways to earn money from others and did not use any of the skills that the shi family had trained her to earn money.
she might have done it subconsciously, but what caused her to do so?
it was just that the shi family could not give her a sense of security, even if the entire family doted on her since she was born.
It was very likely that his daughter had realized this when she was very young, but he only realized it when his daughter left home.
he had failed as a father.
” everyone has a different personality and experiences. you and our son have different personalities and experiences, so you can’t compare them. ”
“each of you has your own merits.”
as su wan spoke, she wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes and asked, ” “Where’s Boran?”
“i heard from the people below that he’s back. he should be in his courtyard.”
“i’ll get someone to send him some supper later. don’t be too busy to eat again.”
“Are you staying here or not?”
shi lin nodded.
Su Wan’s eyes couldn’t stop turning red again.
” i also never see him in school. we’re clearly in the same school. ”
su wan and shi boyu were both professors at jingdu university, but su wan was an honorary professor. she only gave lectures occasionally, so her workload wasn’t heavy and she didn’t go to the university often.
But even if it wasn’t much, she had to go to school at least once a week, but she hadn’t seen Shi boyu for almost two months.
“If you want to see him, call him back for a meal. He will listen to you.”
” no. ” su wan shook her head decisively. ” although the brothers didn’t say it, i know that they all blame me for what happened to yanyan back then. ” Let’s not talk about them blaming me, I’m blaming myself.”
“Why did I force my daughter with the others back then? What am I doing?” As she spoke, her tears fell again.
“You’re not forcing your daughter. You’ve seen that child from the Xie family. You think that he’s not bad, but you also think that your daughter is indifferent and doesn’t care about anything. You want to find someone with good character and ability to take care of her. That child from the Xie family is your choice.”
su wan bit her lip and shook her head. ” no, that’s not it. i just can’t stand the pressure from the other members of the shi family. i just followed suit. ” I’m not that great. I’m not that great of a mother.”
seeing this, shi lin sighed,”you thought so at the beginning, wan wan.” She’s our daughter, and you love her. You shouldn’t be suspicious of her. ”
Every night, she would dream of the scene of her daughter using money to buy off their family ties and resolutely leaving home. For nine years, she had been having nightmares over and over again. The only thing she remembered was that she was the one who forced her daughter to leave home. She had forgotten everything else.
she was filled with self-blame and regret.
” i also thought that i loved yanyan. but if i really loved her, why didn’t i first ask for her opinion and ask if she was willing? instead, i followed others and directly made the decision for her? ”
shi lin held her hand tightly, his eyes full of self-blame.”That’s because we all think that our daughters don’t care about these things, and we have the common problem of most parents, that we think we’re doing this for the good of our children. Even if the child doesn’t like her now, she will one day understand that we are doing this for her own good and won’t harm her. ”
“but we ignored the fact that although yanyan doesn’t care about anything, it doesn’t mean that she doesn’t care about anything. we also neglected the fact that she’s a ten-year-old who can earn tens of millions on her own, not an ordinary child.”
“you’re not the only one at fault in this matter. we’re all at fault.”
*
The Jiang family in Sea city.
Main hall.
Jiang hai came back with Jiang Cheng.
Two old ladies were sitting in the living room. One of them, who didn’t look very friendly, saw that Jiang hai only took Jiang Cheng back and her expression immediately turned ugly.
He ignored Jiang Cheng and looked at Jiang hai, questioning, ” “didn’t i tell that little girl called shi yan to come and see me? where was she? Are you not here or are you looking down on this old woman?”