1833 Chapter 52. There were some promises that could not be fulfilled
“I never thought that anyone would leave early. I never thought that Ah Xiu would die…”ye Heng’s voice sounded deeply in the small car.
He could deeply feel the sadness that came from him.
Lu Man Man silently cried, silently crying for this man… until her heart was torn apart.
Ye Heng took a deep breath, as if he was also fiercely adjusting his emotions.
He said, “I originally planned to look for you the day before yesterday, when Ah Xiu’s body was so weak that he couldn’t hold on anymore, to look for you to accompany him. I took advantage of Ah Xiu’s coma to leave the hospital, but when I arrived at your house’s entrance, I saw you and Lin Chuchen kissing. I originally thought that even if you didn’t come, taking a recent photo of you to let Ah Xiu hold on would also be fine. I thought that if I took a photo of you and Lin Chuchen kissing, I might directly anger him to death!”
Lu man bit her lip.
She did not know that ye Heng had witnessed her kiss with Lin Chuchen that night.
At that moment, she did not know how to explain herself.
She felt that no matter how she tried to explain herself now, it would always be so pale.
“So, Xiu persisted for one day. The next day, his heart really… stopped beating. “And you wouldn’t know what his last words before he died were. He said that today is your wedding day. If he can’t make it through, the news will come out tomorrow
“So, that’s why Xiu passed away yesterday. Only today will people know that he passed away. That’s why all the people of Northern Xia know that he passed away.”Ye Heng covered his face, and tears fell from between his fingers, his chest kept rising and falling. “I really thought about you until the moment I died. I was afraid that it would affect your wedding! It would affect your wedding with other men!”
Lu Man looked at Ye Heng. She looked at the man who would rather bleed than cry. He was crying in front of her like a child.
“I really can’t bear to see his pale face. I can’t bear to see Ah Xiu lying there motionlessly! “That’s why I asked Zhai an to stay with him. I asked Zhai an to stay with him. “I have never experienced such pain in my life. I don’t even know how to face it. I thought, since I feel so bad, why can’t I Drag Someone Down with me? Why Can’t I let you regret it for the rest of your life! It’s you who has let down Xiu’s life!”Ye Heng roared, his voice was very loud, “By now, you should know what Xiu has been doing all these years! All these years, when Xiu was consolidating his power, all he thought about was how to retreat unscathed. He thought about how to smoothly fall from the position of commander-in-chief and then be together with You Again! “He knew that what you wanted was a sense of security, and if he sat in the position of commander-in-chief for a day, he wouldn’t be able to give you absolute security! “So he wanted to give up his empire and use the rest of his life to compensate you!”
Lu Man turned her head out of the window.
Ye Heng’s accusation made her speechless.
It was indeed her. It was because she had never trusted Mo Xiuyuan in the slightest. From the moment of the divorce, she had been deeply ingrained in her pride and had raised it to the highest level, the experience in her previous life really made her unable to accept that she had once again fallen so hard on the path of love. So she tried hard to control herself. She tried hard to forget this man. The more intense it was, the more it was because she could not love him. The more it was because her proud self-esteem could not bear this humiliation.
She was afraid that all the damage would be treated as a stain on her life. That was why she was so determined to reject Mo Xiuyuan’s approach.
She had never thought of lowering her pride to properly understand Mo Xiuyuan, to understand why he was like this, to understand his responsibility, his mission, and his helplessness.
She always used the excuse of “Fate playing tricks on people”to force herself to leave Mo Xiuyuan, to force herself not to understand him, to not need to understand him!
All of this was because of her self-righteous arrogance, which would not allow others to trample on her.
Thinking about it, she really felt that she was very laughable and very pathetic.
For that little bit of self-respect, she really gave up on a man who loved her so much..
She regretted it.
At this moment, she really admitted that she regretted it.
From the moment she knew that Mo Xiuyuan had died, she began to feel that all of this was really revenge.
It was the revenge of the heavens for her.
She actually still had a lot of questions to ask Mo Xiuyuan. She actually had a lot of grievances and emotions that she wanted him to appease. She actually still loved him. She loved him so deeply that she was able to rebound so much, she was afraid that in the field of love, she would become the passive one, the lowly one. She was afraid that she would become someone other than herself, and this kind of herself would truly be a tragedy!
She covered her mouth to control the emotions of her crying, and in the end, it began to collapse bit by bit.
She clearly hoped that Mo Xiuyuan would be able to appear by her side forcefully, but time and time again, she used her hard shell to push him away.
Now..
She could no longer look forward to it.
Her crying made Ye Heng fall silent.
He silently accompanied her, letting her vent in this place.
The death of a person would really cause a lot of people to mourn..
This kind of grief would be fatal!
The two of them sat by the seaside for a long time.
The wind was blowing very hard, and it was cold inside the car.
Ye Heng finally lit up the car and drove her away.
Xiu said that he could not kill this woman, so she could not kill her.
He drove the car to the entrance of the Lu family’s villa.
Lu Man Man did not open the car door and get out. She said, “Can I go and see Mo Xiuyuan?”
She wanted to go and see him.
It would be good to just take a look.
“No,”ye Heng refused.
Lu Man Man knew that this would be the answer.
Ye Heng said, “Ah Xiu said that he was not very handsome when he died. Because there were many wounds on his body, his face was not much better. Moreover, his complexion was very bad. He did not want to leave this final impression in your mind, so you are not allowed to see him. “If you really want to pay your respects, Xiu will be buried in the imperial mausoleum after his death. There’s a very handsome photo of him on it, you can visit him there.”
She probably wouldn’t be able to muster up the courage to visit him for a very long time.
She opened the car door and got out.
Ye Heng watched her back view, watching her suddenly lonely back view disappear before his eyes.
He drove away.
Lu Man would live with her guilt for the rest of her life.
Xiu, I don’t know if you’ll blame me for being a blabbermouth in the netherworld, but I hope that when you pass by the bridge of helplessness and drink Meng Po’s soup, you must remember to finish it. Don’t be so affectionate in your next life!
It wasn’t worth it.
..
Lu Man walked into the hall of the villa.
The atmosphere in the hall was very depressing.
Lu man turned her head and looked at the television.
The television was broadcasting the news of the death of the commander-in-chief of the northern Xia Kingdom, Mo Xiuyuan. He was 35 years old this year.
And before she could read any further, her parents suddenly hung up the television.
Then, the entire living room was quiet.
He Xiuwen looked at Lu Man’s appearance. Looking at her pale face, she looked very haggard.
She got up and tried to smile. “Where did you go on such a Cold Day?”
“I went for a pregnancy test,”lu man answered mechanically.
“Is there a problem?”
“It’s normal.”Lu Man looked at He Xiuwen. “The child is good, but I’m not.”
“Manman, don’t be like this. Your mother is really uncomfortable like this. This was an accident. No one knew that Mo Xiuyuan would die from fatigue and severe injuries…”
Severe injuries.
She was the one who gave her a body that could not be treated.
“Man Man, you said before that you can live well on your own. Don’t let me worry about you. I don’t want you to get married anymore. I think it’s fine as long as you are safe and sound by my side. I will accompany you and take care of your children. I will always accompany you and take care of your two children. Don’t let me feel uncomfortable, okay?”
“Mom, I really can’t control myself!”Lu Man hugged her mother.
She really couldn’t control the tears that flowed down her face.
Right now, the entire northern Xia country was broadcasting the news of Mo Xiu’s death..
But…
She really couldn’t accept it.
She really couldn’t accept it. This man would die first in her lifetime.
“Man Man, Don’t cry. Once you cry, Mom won’t be able to control herself. It’s not good for the fetus either. “Since you still love him so much, and since you don’t want him to die without regrets, you must ensure that your body is strong enough to give birth to your second child with him.”He Xiuwen was truly shocked by Lu Man’s current emotions.
From the moment she became sensible, Lu man man wouldn’t be so bitter.
She would be considerate and not cry in front of them like this.
At this moment, she probably really couldn’t control herself.
It was only when one was in extreme sorrow and despair that one couldn’t help it!
He Xiuwen hugged her daughter tightly.
Lu Zishan watched silently from the side. He kept sighing and sighing.
Fortunately, Yannuo wasn’t around right now.
At this time, she was taking a nap in her room.
Lu man cried for a while.
He Xiuwen took her to sit on the sofa.
Looking at her red and swollen eyes, she comforted her, “Man man, everyone has their own fate. Don’t think too much. Time will dilute everything. Trust Mom.”
Lu Man Man did not nod, nor did she shake her head.
She was very clear in her heart.
Time could not dilute everything!
It could not wash away, Mo Xiuyuan.
“Mom will accompany you to your room to sleep, you are still pregnant.”He Xiuwen pulled her upstairs again.
She wanted to fall asleep, maybe it would not be so uncomfortable.
Her mother was right, she wanted to keep this child now.
At least, this child was the only thing he had left for her.
She lay on the bed, forcing herself to sleep.
She closed her eyes, and all she saw was Mo Xiuyuan.
When she opened her eyes, she was at a loss again!
She suddenly thought of what they had said. Mo Xiuyuan had liked her for a very, very long time. In her previous life, when she had died, how had Mo Xiuyuan felt? Was it because he felt as bad as she did now? !
Probably, he would.
“Manman.”He Xiuwen looked at her emotionless face. Her tears flowed down the corners of her eyes. Soon, her pillow was wet. “Don’t think about it anymore. Go to sleep.”
Go to sleep.
She also told herself not to think about it anymore. Go to sleep.
She didn’t know how long she had slept.
In the end, she still fell asleep in extreme sadness.
This time, she had a very strange dream.
She dreamed of the future of her previous life.
She saw Mo Xiuyuan, saw such a man, came to attend her funeral.
She saw him crying.
Sitting alone in the car, tears flowed out of her eyes.
She also saw that he often came to her grave, sitting there for a day, but never said a word in front of her grave.
She saw his lonely back, so with her, with her, in her sleep, she really climbed out of the coffin, holding his lonely figure tightly.
In that life.
He had been alone for a lifetime.
She opened her eyes abruptly.
The pillow was wet again.
Her face was frighteningly pale.
Don’t..
Don’t end up like this. She would rather he find a random woman and live his life carelessly. She didn’t want to spend the rest of her life alone for her in this past life where she had never even looked at him, she felt very guilty, very guilty.
But in this life, she still let him down.
“Mom.”Yino’s voice made her sink into a nightmare and wake up.
She turned around and saw Mo Yino looking at her with his big eyes.
“Mom, are you crying?”Yino asked her.
The moment he asked, he also cried.
He was probably really scared by her appearance.
Lu man wiped her tears carelessly and forced herself to laugh. She said, “Why are you in Mom’s room? Where’s Grandma?”
“Grandma went downstairs to prepare dinner. Grandma has been staying in the room with you. She just left. I came in to accompany you after she left. Grandma said that Mom has been in a bad mood these few days and asked me to take care of you. Mom will take good care of you. Don’t Cry,”Yino said very sensibly, there was a hint of determination in her voice.
Lu Man pulled Yannuo into her arms. “Mommy is fine. Mommy just had a nightmare.”
“I know.”Yannuo nodded and said obediently, “That’s why mommy talks in her sleep.”
“Did I talk in My Sleep?”Lu Man lowered her head and asked Yannuo.
“I did. I’m calling Uncle Ungrateful Wolf by his name, Mo Xiuyuan!”Yannuo said word by word.
Lu Man’s heart tightened.
“Mom, did you dream that Uncle Ungrateful Wolf hit you?”
“No.”Lu Man shook her head. “MOM only dreamed that he left…”
“Where did he go?”
“He went to an unknown place.”Lu Man didn’t want to explain it clearly.
She didn’t want Yannuo to know, even if it was a white lie, it was still good.
“Will he come back?”Yannuo asked seriously.
Lu man bit her lips and did not say a word.
“Won’t Uncle Ungrateful Wolf Come Back?”Yannuo asked repeatedly, “If he won’t come back, how can I call him Dad! I have clearly been thinking about uncle ungrateful wolf suddenly appearing, and then I will call him Dad!”
“I’m sorry, Yannuo.”Lu man hugged her tightly, “Some promises can not be fulfilled.”
For example, what he said… A Promise is worth its weight in gold.
“Mom, are you crying again?”Mo Yannuo asked as he felt the moisture on his face.
Lu Man tried her best to control herself and tried her best to wipe her eyes. Instead, the more she wiped, the more she wiped.
She said, “Yannuo, Mom is feeling a little comfortable. You go out first and accompany Grandma.”
“But mom, you’re still crying…”
“Mommy will be fine, but mommy needs to be quiet now.”
Mo Yannuo looked at her worriedly, but she still obediently nodded and left.
Lu Man lay back on the bed, her tears were like crazy.
She thought of Mo Xiuyuan’s appearance in her dream, she thought of his lonely figure, she even thought that Mo Xiuyuan, who was walking alone on the road to the Netherworld, would also be so lonely..
And she was unable to accompany him!
..
Mo Xiuyuan’s death shocked the entire country and even the entire world.
The news of the death of the northern Xia country’s commander-in-chief spread all over the world.
Countless friendly countries sent sorrowful condolences!
Such a sorrowful incident lasted for a whole week in northern Xia country. A week later, Mo Xiuyuan was buried.
On that day, the people consciously formed a long dragon and stood on both sides of the street. They watched as the vehicle carrying Mo Xiuyuan’s ashes drove into the royal tomb.
Many people wept bitterly.
The sky on that day was filled with gloom and dark clouds!
Mo Xiuyuan had only been the commander-in-chief for less than four years. Because of his ability, all the people of Northern Xia worshipped him. In addition, to the outside world, his death came from working hard for the country. He was overly tired, and his position in the hearts of the people was even more honorable, he became the only wise Emperor to die young in the history of northern Xia.
On the television, the news of Mo Xiuyuan’s burial was broadcasted.
That day, all the television screens were black and white. All the websites had been hacked. The whole country was mourning for Mo Xiuyuan.
Lu Man kept looking at the television screen.
She did not go out.
She could not go out.
Because she was in the hospital.
This week, she did not touch a single drop of water, so she was sent to the hospital.
Today in the hospital was more solemn and quiet than usual.
Everyone knew that Mo Xiuyuan was buried today, and everyone was mourning for him!
She just watched silently.
Her mother was beside her, wanting to turn off the television several times.
But as soon as she turned it off, the originally calm and obedient man man would resist like crazy!
She would go crazy and make a big fuss.
He Xiuwen really did not dare. She really did not dare. Sometimes, she did not even dare to breathe loudly.
She was afraid that she would scare man man. She was so fragile.
He Xiuwen watched TV with her.
She watched her calmly watch the sad scenes on the black screen one after another..
Suddenly, there was a knock on the door outside the ward. It was slowly pushed open.
Lu manman turned to look at the person.
She looked at Zhai an and appeared at the door.
Why was Zhai an here at this time..
Was she like Ye Heng, unable to accept Mo Xiuyuan’s death? !