Chapter 185 Louder than words
The moment Sei heard Zaki’s idea, his face amazingly turned radiant as though heaven just opened to redeem him from the pit he created himself. Knowing that there’s still a way for him to make up with his mistake put some glimmering hopefulness in his eyes. However, just as he began to put his wife into consideration first before he takes any step forward, somehow, the radiance in his face slowly dissipated. He then remained silence for a long while before he finally talked again.
"But what if she doesn’t like the idea of redoing the wedding?" he asked with a worried look in his eyes. Causing Zaki to put his hand into his chin as he pretended to think.
"Hmm... now that you mention it. The possibility of her not liking it isn’t zero." He replied and as expected, Sei’s expression turned worse. He suddenly looked as though, he wanted to kill someone, of he himself, for being too cold and inconsiderate towards her back then. He even started recalling the first time they met, his cold gazes towards her, his cold actions, and the cold words he told her including the contract he heartlessly made for her to follow.
That moment, thinking about those made Sei felt like his heart was being squeezed intensely. His chest was heavy and he thought that if there’s a way to go back in time, no matter how hellish it is, he would have go through it without question. However, he knew he couldn’t do a thing about it anymore but clench his fist tight and get angry towards his past self.
Thus, the next second, Sei looked at Zaki with a faint feeling of helplessness as he talked.
"What should I do?" he asked and his sudden seemingly helpless look, almost choked Zaki to death. Well, since that night of their escape, it’s the first time Zaki witnessed this Mr. I don’t care who never even uttered the word ’help’ to anyone else looks helpless, even though it’s just a bit.
Cough, cough... Holy cow Sei... you didn’t even look like this even when you’re in those life or death situations yet now you’re actually like this just because your wife might not like the idea of re-wedding? Sigh...
"Well..." Zaki started even though he was still in the process of brainstorming what he’ll tell him next. Thankfully, maybe because he’s used to it, Zaki somehow managed to think about something in the nick of time.
"Anyway Sei, tell me first, since you already know you’re in love with her, have you confessed to her?" he continued when Sei just fell completely quiet while he looked at him with extremely clueless gaze.
"Is that needed?" Sei replied, causing Zaki’s veins to immediately popped.
"Oi... sigh... how could I even begin to coach you when you’re like this?" Zaki said and this time, he’s the one turning helpless.
"But action speaks louder than words. She will know through my actions that I’m in love her." Sei said with such honest voice again, causing to just face palmed himself before he finally burst.
"I know you’re still a baby when it comes to romance, and what you said is somehow true but listen to me, there are things people couldn’t understand unless they were put into words. You get it? If you won’t say it, it might only create misunderstanding. She might end misunderstanding your actions. You never know, what if she thinks that you’re just being nice to her because she’s currently your so called wife? What if she thinks that you’re just pleasing her so that she’ll stay and bear your child?"
"That’s..."
"And besides, let me ask you... can you tell through her actions alone what she felt for you? You might think she obviously likes you, but are you sure she loves you when she didn’t even tell you the words ’I love you’?" Zaki said and Sei froze.