Chapter 32 - 2.4 Third Small Star – Empty Heart
Hospital.
Wu Xue's former room.
Left behind by Yue Wuya, Wan Lengya could only stand there in dazed. The nurses looked at him worriedly as his face turned ashen with shock.
"Sir, is everything alright?" asked by the nurses.
Taking a deep breath as if he's extremely tired, Lengya took a second before answering.
Sigh~
"Yes, there is no problem. Would it be alright for me to stay here for a moment?" replied Wan Lengya leaving the nurses bewildered before they reluctantly nodded their heads and left the room staring at him with confusion in their eyes.
As he was left alone inside the room, Wan Lengya dragged a chair and sat by the opened window looking at the full bloomed plum blossoms scenery. This was the scene Wu Xue wanted to see that day. Wan Lengya was in daze as if he was in his deep thoughts while unconsciously grabbing at his chest above his heart.
The throbbing pain within is like a proof that he lost something extremely significant. He was pondering what's wrong until he heard soft childish voices just outside the opened door.
'Oh~ I told you the Fairy had left.'
'But the fairy said he will leave us some snacks in his room after he goes.'
'There is someone else in the room. How could we sneak inside?'
'Yea~ he looks so scary. Cold as ice. The fairy said he is a demon king.'
'What should we do now?'
'What to do?'
Hearing their dialogue, Wan Lengya truly noticed a bag hidden by the corner of the bed. Clumsily hidden, the bag is filled with snacks which children enjoy. It seems that these children were leeching sweets at Wu Xue's room when the former is still around.
After all, that person loves to eat sweet things, thinking about this little cute hobby of Wu Xue, Lengya's lips unconsciously upturned. As if he thought of something, Wan Lengya took the bag of snacks and went to where the children are.
He lowered himself on their height level and went down on one knee.
"If you could answer a few questions I will give all these to you guys in exchange." Wan Lengya said as he showed the 3 children before him the snack filled bag Wu Xue left intended for them.
"Ah~ but that's what the fairy left for us~"
"The demon king is bullying. You can't take what the fairy left for us."
"Snacks~ sweets~"
As if the children were unafraid of his cold demeanor, Lengya couldn't help but asked, "Are you not… afraid of me?" the children looked at him with a cute confused expression on their faces.
[? ? ?] [Three Bewildered Little Devils]
"Why…? ~ the evil fairy said that the demon king only looks cold outside but is warm inside."
"That's right, the fairy never lies. He's voice is so amazing too."
"Yes~ when he sings the sounds is like you're in heaven, but it feels sad~ Do you want to see? I've secretly recorded it once. You must never tell the fairy, or he'll get angry."
Wan Lengya nodded his head. Then he watched the children brought out a tablet and played a single recording. Based on the angle of the video, it seem to be recorded secretly without Wu Xue knowing. Within the screen Wu Xue was looking at the window watching the plum blossom blooms.
Only his side profile was seen on the tablet screen. His exquisite but pale face was recorded on the video. They could see him singing as they saw his mouth moving and sounds recorded on the tablet were heard. The song he sang is entitled 'My heart is broken' [by Evanescence].
---
Lyrics of My Heart is Broken by Evanescence.
I pull away to face the pain
I close my eyes and drift away
Over the fear that I will never find
A way to heal my soul
And I will wander 'till the end of time
Torn away from you
My heart is broken
Sweet sleep, my dark angel
Deliver us from sorrow's hold
Or from my hard heart
I can't go on living this way
But I can't go back the way I came
Shamed of this fear that I will never find
A way to heal my soul
And I will wander 'till the end of time
Half a life without you
My heart is broken
Sweet sleep, my dark angel
Deliver us, change, open your eyes to the light
I denied it all so long, oh so long
Say goodbye, goodbye
My heart is broken
Sweet sleep, my dark angel
Deliver us
My heart is broken
Sweet sleep, my dark angel
Deliver us
My heart is broken
Sweet sleep, my dark angel
Deliver us from sorrow's hold
---
[A/n: Credits to the singer and composer of the song. The song is not mine.]
The song is about a brokenhearted person, who decided let go of everything because someone broke his heart. The music is slow and mellow, but the core of the music is sadness and misery of loss.
Wan Lengya's tears couldn't help but fall as he listened to that familiar voice singing with such emotions, eventually melting even his ice cold heart. That person in the video was his! The reason why his soul aches is because he lost him when he was already his and that it was him who let him go for a mirage of someone who can never be the same as his wife.
It was even during his wife's greatest sorrow. How could he not know? For someone like Wu Xue who loves music as much as he does, how could he let go of that person's hand in his darkness moment? Even leaving this person on his own in his despair. Only then did he finally realize why Wu Xue never looked at him once that day.
Wu Xue was afraid. He was horrified by the fact that he might or couldn't, give me the freedom I wanted, if he saw my face. He was anxious that he won't be able to control his emotions, his love for me and won't be able to let go.
Wan Lengya finally realized at this moment that what he lost isn't only his wife but also his soul and heart who cried out and loved only one person, Wu Xue.
'No, that was someone else. The Wu Xue he knows never moved his heart. That's why even 3 years had passed, he couldn't feel anything for him. Only that person… that one who disguised himself as Wu Xue but not the real one.
It was someone who used Wu Xue's face, but the one inside is someone else. He knows he is right. He couldn't explain and there is no evidence to his conjecture but… his soul knows.
That Wu Xue he saw that day, is not the same Wu Xue who married him. Though in the end, it was still him who let him leave and escape from him.'
As planned on the same day the following news about Wu Xue was released.
First is marriage with Wan Lengya, the King of Music, being officially dissolved.
Second is Wu Xue being disowned from Wu Clan's bloodline, he is no longer the Prince of Wu clan and cut off the remaining ties with Wu.
Lastly is about his real inheritance.
Wu Xue is the Hei Royal Family's only remaining direct bloodline except for the current emperor who married a male empress. The purity of his royal bloodline is even purer than those at Wu Clan. He finally accepted his maternal family assets and will be enthroned as the crown prince of Hei Royal Clan by the next month.
These three news spread in Wu Wan Conservatoire of Music like a wildfire and among them, one had been waiting for this as it was something he planned. It was a young man with short obsidian hair and a pair of scarlet orbs.
His appearance is the embodiment of innocence, brightness and naivete but at least at this moment his scarlet eyes are filled with mirth and madness as he watched Wu Xue's figure from the television in front of him. Smiling evilly as if he is some kind of evil being.
"Even after losing your fingers, your husband, and your identity as Wu Clan's prince. You can still block my way. Should I thoroughly destroy you then, Prince Xue~ Hahaha~" said Xing Ran as he watches the television in his room.
After the announcement was made, there was chaos within the palace of Wu and Wan Clan. They would have never expected that the unloved prince of Wu Clan would have that kind of bloodline. Wu Xue, who is now called as Hei Xue was considered a pure-blooded royalty. His blood is so pure that even Wan Lengya's identity as Music industry's King cannot help but fall short behind his real background.
When the Wan Clan saw the live broadcast, they couldn't help but feel extremely disappointed. They felt that they've ignored a once in a lifetime opportunity to ascend to the peak of fame. The clan leaders and elders were all shaking their heads in shame but among them only Lady Wan showed a bitter but understanding smile when she saw the news.
The moment she saw the news about Hei Xue, only then she understood why she felt uncomfortable the moment her son and Wu Xue decided to divorce. That restless in her heart, she felt that day when the little prince ignored their presence not only hers but also her son made her realize that the little prince had decided to throw away his past.
The past where he loved her son unconditionally. By throwing his past identity as Wu Xue, he will now live his real life as a real royalty. After all the only things that kept him from leaving before, is his love for music which he lost when his fingers were crippled and her son, Wan Lengya, who broke his heart when he agreed to their divorce.
It was at that point in time that she realized that the moment her son and the little prince decided to get divorce on that day is the time that they would lose all rights they used to think as normal. Like calling Hei Xue his name or even existing in his world. Being able to stay by his side or even being acquainted with this child named Xue.
They have lost all rights and become nothing but mere strangers to each other.
When Lady Wan saw her son, Wan Lengya watching the news with no emotions, not even the usual coldness in his being exist at the moment and then seeing his soulless eyes only then she understood.
That within the Wan Clan there is only one person who lost everything. The moment the divorce between Wu and Wan Clan was finalized. When Hei Xue left the country, Wan Lengya lost everything.
He lost his emotions, his familial love, his heart, and his soul. The only thing that kept this person alive is music. Music, which is the only remaining connection he can have with Hei Xue, who loves it second after him.
Wan Lengya left his Clan's Mansion and headed back to Wu Wan Conservatoire. Heading back home in that place which can only be called as a house they formerly shared and now can only regarded as his sole manor. He walked towards the music room where the White Jade Piano is placed.
Sitting in front of the white piano, Wan Lengya's fingers move before each piano key. Playing a certain etude while falling deep in his thoughts. Only the sound of piano can be heard in where he is.
Wan Lengya's thoughts at the moment while playing his piano,
'Strive.
Endeavors.
Continue waiting.
As long I don't stop playing,
You will return right?
My one and only true
Muse'