His Breathtaking and Shimmering Light

“Don’t look at how Yanchen always seems so cocky and aloof. However, he is really fragile within his heart. He has never ever forgotten about you ever since the breakup…” Something dawned upon Shen Lingshuang as she raised her finger. “Right, I was just packing your room a couple of days ago and caught sight of a bunch of postcards. All of them had things written on them. I suppose they should have been written for you. Hold on, I’ll go get them for you.”

Shen Lingshuang stood up and headed upstairs, returning before long with a whole bunch of postcards.

“Look, even though your name isn’t written on it specifically, I’m sure they’re written for you. Smelly brat! Clearly, it was him being too proud to be wrong, and yet he was acting all resentful.”

Shi Guang lowered her head, her heart tightening so much that it felt as though someone was choking the breath out of her.

“In the military, they would give them letters and postcards to write. He was most likely writing to you each time he got those postcards, just that he didn’t mail it out.”

As Shen Lingshuang’s voice drifted by Shi Guang’s ears, she was trying her best to repress her tears as she looked at the former with a pair of reddened eyes. “I’m full now. I’ll go read them in the room.”

Looking at her bowl and affirming that she had indeed eaten quite a bit, Shen Lingshuang smiled, “Go on, go on!”

The moment Shi Guang returned to the bedroom, she could not help but flip the first one over…

<I’m missing you. However, the more I miss you, the more I hate you. Even now that Yours Truly has left, I’m probably nothing more than a passer-by in your life.>

<The training in the army is truly tiring. Are you tired from your own training as well, idiot? Have you gotten a champion title yet?>

<These are things that you might probably never ever see in your entire lifetime. But whether or not you see them matters no longer. Remember to eat well even when I’m not around you.>

<I’ve been selected by my brother saying something about my potential being good and I’ve been sent to the Special Forces.>

<The Special Forces are not for humans.>

<If I die, will you feel pain? Will you be sad?>

<I feel like I’m truly about to die soon. Will you remember me forever if I were to die?>

<Sorry to disappoint you. Not only did Yours Truly not die, Yours Truly even received a medal.>

<I heard that you were disqualified from your competition! You deserve it for being so stupid!>

<I can’t write down just how wicked you are, neither can I write down just how much I miss you. All I know is that Yours Truly is not going to continue writing this sh*t in the future.>

<Bored. Yours Truly is just writing for fun.>

<Going out for a mission tomorrow. Not sure if I’ll manage to come back alive.>

…

One after another, those postcards merely had those words written on them without any dates or signatures.

Shi Guang was long sobbing in silent tears.

She thought about how she had always felt like the one chasing behind him tirelessly to catch up with him. Even after the breakup, she wanted to leave his world with her head tall in dignity.

But in reality, the amount of effort and care he had spent on thinking about her wasn’t any bit less than she had.

They were two people that were insistent on their love toward one another, yet stubbornly refusing to admit it.

Wasn’t this what people called love?

No matter what, Lu Yanchen, it was truly wonderful being able to meet you in that blossoming spring of my youth.

No matter what, Lu Yanchen, loving you in those fleeting years was truly wonderful.

Shi Guang cried so badly that she could no longer recognize herself with tears and snot spilling all over. Eventually, she could not help but laugh out, “Lu Yanchen, you’re doomed. Even if I turn into a ghost, I’m going to cling onto you for the rest of my life!”

She hugged that pile of postcards and laid down on the bed in silence as her thoughts revolved around her sister and Lu Yanchen alternatingly.

It was only till nearly daybreak that she managed to fall asleep.

The next day, she was awakened by her phone’s ringtone. Because she had slept so late, her mind was in somewhat of a daze, and she was in a hazy state of being.