Chapter 836 I don’t want it
It took Alicia a long while to even move. What he said was just so shocking that she could not even find any words to say.
"I believe that it's the same principle as what had happened to Kai and Kelly." Ezekiel continued a long stretch of silence. "If a royal blood vampire and a human managed to mate without the human dying, the vampire turns into a human. However, it's the other way around for vampires and witches. The witch will be the one to turn into a vampire."
Alicia could only keep her gaze on him in utter silence.
"I didn't have any access of information on everything about this matter even back then. So all that I am certain was about the spell itself and the outcome as I've used and seen it myself. Sebastian must've known more about the details and procedures behind the scenes on this matter because… because he was the only one that they had kept with them almost the entire time we were imprisoned there." He shook his head a little. "But I… can't possibly –"
"Shh…" Alicia finally made a sound. Her fingertips landed softly on his lips now. "That's enough, Ezekiel. You don't have to tell me more on this matter." An understanding smile was plastered on her face as she caressed his cheek gently as she reassured him. "All I wanted to know about right now is the spell itself. Nothing more. There is no need for you to go into the details of it."
His fine and thick brows creased and she knew why. But Alicia had already decided on going ahead with it. This too… she was going to take it. Come what may, she wanted to be with him. Consequences be damned.
It was incredible how she could not even make herself hesitate. Her, turning into a vampire? That was something she had never even imagined to be happening in her entire existence.
She thought that it all must be because she was already dead. And her desire for him had already gone above and beyond anything that existed in this world.
Right, she was already dead. She nodded to herself as she was reminded of the fact. She was only here physically because of Ezekiel's powers alone. Turning into a vampire for the last few days that she had left in this world was not really a big deal to her now that she thought about it. After all, she had already died as a witch. That part of her life had been over and done with long ago. If this was the only way for her to love him and have him fully, she would gladly take it.
"Please tell me about the spell, Ezekiel." She uttered, letting him see and feel her solid decision about this.
"Alicia…" his throat worked as he grabbed her wrists. He looked like he was still in disbelief at her easy acceptance in this. She seemed to be extremely willing to bear the consequences of fully being with him. "No. you can't be agreeing about this –"
"Why not, Ezekiel?" she cut him off, her eyes gleaming with determination. Her tone was slightly defiant as though daring him to say whatever excuse he had why she should not be accepting of this consequence. "If this is the one and only way for me to have you then I'm willing to be a vampire, Ezekiel. I'm already…" and she used both hands to gesture to herself from head to toe before giving him a meaningful glance. "…so I don't see any reason why I shouldn't want this. Why I shouldn't accept this."
"No, Alicia… damn… you're only saying this because you think you'd be gone soon, right? Then I'm telling you now, after I leave, you will stay here." he cupped her face and spoke with certainty. "You're not going to disappear for good, Alicia. You will stay here and live."
Another shocking revelation from Ezekiel that shook her world.
"What… what are you saying? How do you know that I'm going to…" Alicia could not help but stammer out in shock.
"There's a spell that could bring you back to life, Alicia." He explained gently, his eyes even sparked with a beautiful glint. As if he was so beyond glad that such a spell actually existed. "Right now, I believe that Zeres has finally found it -"
"I don't want it." Alicia broke off. Her eyes suddenly turned watery, and her shoulders started to shake slightly. "I don't want it, Ezekiel."
He stilled. Surprise filling his eyes. "Wait… You know about this…??" disbelief was evident in his voice.
"Yes." Alicia swallowed. Her throat hurts like hell but she fought hard to keep herself from breaking down. "I know there is such a spell in existence… but I didn't bother to look for it. Not because that I know I can never find it by myself. But because… I just don't want it. I know you know what that spell will do to me, Ezekiel. I will be brought back to life but... but I will lose everything else. My powers, my abilities, everything… I will turn into someone who is no different from the humans. I will be powerless my whole remaining lifetime and will eventually get sick, grow old, and die. What kind of life would that be, Ezekiel? So no, I don't want it… I don't want it…" Alicia kept repeating that as her grip on Zeke's shirt was getting tighter as her lips started to tremble.
"I know it's ridiculous of me not to want such a second chance in life. And many would even think that I should accept it with gratitude instead but… I'm sorry I just can't accept it. I don't want to live that kind of life… you might say I will be fine, and that I will not need any magic to live a good life. Because the humans are just doing fine. And many of them are happy people who are going about, enjoying their mundane lives. But I just can't."