vChapter 890 - Feng Jin Yuan Having a Great Awakening, Do You Believe It?
Feng Jin Yuan Having a Great Awakening, Do You Believe It?
The grave that Xuan Tian Ming had prepared for Yao shi could not be considered magnificent, but it was still quite nice. The location had been chosen by Feng Jin Yuan, and it was near a body of water, with a row of trees nearby. In the desert, to be able to choose this sort of location was extremely difficult.
Ban Zou rode on a camel at her side to protect her. While riding through the desert at a frantic pace, he advised her: “If you truly feel uncomfortable, just cry it out. Or just think about how she treated you in the past and why she ended up dying. The very root of this trouble was something that she chose for herself. If she obediently stayed in the capital, and if she did not wildly recognize her daughter, and did not bring Fu Ya to the South to impersonate you, she would not have met with this end. Master, you don’t owe her. There’s no need to feel guilty.”
While he spoke, the two had already reached the oasis. Feng Yu Heng also believed that she would cry, but she found that when she truly faced the very conspicuous grave, her heart was completely calm. Not even the pain from when that situation had occurred with Yao shi came back.
She descended from her camel and walked forward until she reached Yao shi’s grave. Only then did she reply to Ban Zou’s earlier words. She said: “I have never felt guilty about her. As her daughter, I believe that I have already done everything possible, but Ban Zou, you need to know that she is my mother. There is an unseverable blood bond between that person and this body. Even if we severed ties emotionally, we are still connected by blood. She gave life to this body. To this body, it must always be grateful.”
Ban Zou was completely dazed and confused by this. What was this about the body. The way she was speaking, it was as though Feng Yu Heng had not always owned this body. They were two separate entities, but how could that be possible.
He did not continue on this topic and took the initiative to take a few steps forward then kneeled in front of Yao shi’s grave to kowtow three times. After all, she was his master’s mother. Regardless of what was said, this kowtowing needed to be done.
Feng Yu Heng saw this and thought of something, thus she stepped forward and kneeled, kowtowing three times to the grave. When she raised her head, she saw that the grave had her and Feng Zi Rui’s names written on it. In her heart, she was thankful for Xuan Tian Ming’s thoughtfulness. Even if she was not the original daughter, Zi Rui was still Yao shi’s son. This was something that could not change. For a spot to be left for Zi Rui, it could be considered some kind intentions.
She murmured to herself, and the words that came out of her mouth caused Ban Zou to feel even more confused, as he heard Feng Yu Heng say: “That year in the mountains of the Northwest, I woke up and recognized this world and met Xuan Tian Ming. I also got to know mother and Zi Rui. I once promised her that I would get revenge for her. I would take care of everyone that caused her to suffer. I have always believed that I was in the right. Allowing you to return to the position of head wife of the Feng family and allowing you to take the initiative to divorce Feng Jin Yuan from that position. I gave you a first-rank noble position, and I provided Zi Rui with a great future. I had originally thought that you were happy with it because if you wanted, you could have lived a peaceful life with me in the imperial daughter’s manor; however, who knew… that you would no longer recognize me as your daughter.”
She spoke with a bit of a depressed tone; however, not a single tear fell. It was as though she had already run out of tears along the way. Now, all that remained was a feeling of calmness. It was as though Yao shi had already passed away many years ago, like her mom from her previous life.
“It was my mistake.” She faintly sighed, “It turned out that a mother would have that much of an understanding of her own daughter, and her senses would be so sharp. I had thought that you had accepted Feng Yu Heng’s change; however, who knew that I had just thought myself clever and deceived myself. Your mind was clear mirror, and you saw me as a contemptible little character that was acting in a play. Thinking about it now, it really was laughable. But no matter how laughable it is, this play has already been performed to this point. From the capital to the South, it has already reached Gu Shu’s territory. I no longer have any room to retreat, nor have I ever thought of looking back. Xuan Tian Ming is still waiting for me up ahead. Since I have already come, I need to accompany him on this path until the end. Rest in peace, as long as I am still in the South, I will frequently come to see you. Even if I return to the capital, I will frequently come to pay respects. Things have always been difficult, and this might just be our fate. This is also the shallow fate between you and me.”
After she finished speaking, she stood up and took one last glance at the grave. She then turned around with a resolute expression.
However, she found that there was a man in purple robes standing a short distance behind her. The sand in the desert was kicked up, and the wind caused his inky-black hair to move with the wind, hiding a dreary appearance.
Feng Yu Heng choked up. She did not even cry in front of Yao shi’s grave; however, when she saw this person once more, she felt that she was unable to control her emotions. Her lips parted in a grimace, as a miserable look appeared on her face.
Xuan Tian Ming quickly stepped forward and pulled the person into his embrace. He saw Ban Zou’s figure sway then disappear, leaving the two alone in the oasis. The sobs grew louder, and eventually became wails.
She did not remember how she ended up crying herself to sleep in Xuan Tian Ming’s embrace. She just knew that she was having a very long dream. In this dream, she had returned to her previous world, to a time when her mother was standing before her with a smile. Her belly was extremely round, as she said to her with a joyful expression: “A-Heng, take a guess. Is there a younger brother or a younger sister in mom’s belly?”
She replied with a bright smile: “Grandfather already told me. It’s a younger brother!”
Her mother smiled sweetly: “That’s right! It’s a cute younger brother. A-Heng, you must take care of your younger brother in the future.”
She really doted on her younger brother; however, who knew that her mom would not live to see her younger brother be born.
This dream passed in a trance and was immediately followed by a face that was exactly the same as her own. Wearing ancient clothes that were coarse and grey in color, she looked to be 12-years-old, and her expression was stubborn and unyielding.
She subconsciously called: “You’re Feng Yu Heng!”
That person nodded with a faint expression. She did not appear gloomy nor happy. Even when she told her about Yao shi passing away, that Feng Yu heng just coldly nodded her head without any change in demeanor. But she still said: “I don’t blame you. If a person is unable to adjust their own mindset, the end result would be elimination. You already did very well, thank you.”
She woke up with this word of thanks, and she had been soaked in a cold sweat.
The place where she had been staying was the residence in Sha Ping City that Xuan Tian Ming lived in. When she sat up, Wang Chuan heard her movements from the outer room and quickly entered. Seeing that she had woken up, she was very happy and quickly asked: “Is Young Miss hungry? You slept for too long. It has been two days since you were last awake.”
“Two days? It’s been that long?” Feng Yu Heng was a bit flustered then asked: “Where’s Xuan Tian Ming?”
“His Highness has gone to the military camp. It’s just outside the Southern Gate of the city. It’s not far.” Wang Chuan went forward to help her and let her lean against the bed. Only then did she hastily go outside to have the servants prepare some congee for her.
Feng Yu Heng did not have much of an appetite, but she was still a bit hungry. She got up and ate a couple bowls before having Wang Chuan help her get cleaned up. When she finished taking care of these things and left the courtyard, she heard a number of the soldiers stationed nearby talking about Feng Jin Yuan.
She felt that this was fresh and sat for a while to listen. These were all soldiers that had come from the military camp outside the capital. They were all very familiar with her, and they recounted what Feng Jin Yuan had done recently in great detail. This caused Feng Yu Heng to furrow her brow upon hearing this.
She asked Wang Chuan: “Feng Jin Yuan has changed. Do you believe it?”
Wang Chuan said: “In truth, just hearing it like this, I do not believe it. But during the two days that Young Miss was asleep, this servant went to the yard where he was staying and personally saw that person severely ill in bed, and we also spoke a bit. There did indeed seem to be a bit of a great awakening, but unfortunately…” Wang Chuan paused for a moment, “I fear that no matter what sort of awakening, it is pointless. He is very severely ill. As for whether or not he can recover, this servant is not too optimistic. How about Young Miss go and take a look?”
Feng Yu Heng nodded, “Then let’s go take a look!”
When she arrived, Feng Jin Yuan had just finished taking some medicine. The soldier that had brought the medicine was saying to him: “This medicine was some of what had been leftover by our comrades for you. It was prepared by Imperial Daughter when we left the capital. Each of us brought some along in the event that we might need it. General said that Imperial Daughter will be arriving soon. Those of us without heatstroke symptoms or those comrades who have already begun to recover from heatstroke have given you some of their medicine. When Imperial Daughter arrives, she can replenish the medicine.”
These past two days, Feng Jin Yuan had been having some trouble breathing. After taking the medicine, he struggled to breathe for a while before urgently asking: “Did His Highness say when A-Heng will arrive? Can she arrive within two days? Can we ask His Highness to write A-Heng a letter to tell her to come quickly. I fear that if she comes late, I won’t be able to see her. Two days, at most two days. I know my body. After two more days, I won’t be able to hold on any longer.”
The soldier snorted and said with a bit of feeling: “Just look at yourself. You’re a grown man, so how can you not even understand this bit of reasoning? Our imperial daughter is a very skilled person. No matter how stupid you are, you should understand that your second daughter is the most reliable! Yet you were able to do so many excessive things in the past?” While he spoke, he shook his head, “Really, a perfectly good family, even we feel that it’s a pity. Hah! Forget it, forget it, not to hide it from you, Imperial Daughter actually arrived two days earlier. She first went to Madam Yao’s grave and fainted from crying, and she was carried back by the general. If you really want to see Imperial Daughter, just wait a bit longer.”
“She… she’s already here?” Feng Jin Yuan was a bit hesitant to believe it, but then he reacted and became emotional. But hearing that she had fainted from crying, he felt anxious on the inside. Grabbing the soldier, he asked: “Did she just faint from crying? Is it urgent? Why has she not woken up for two days? Has a doctor been called to take a look at her? That disciple of hers, Song Kang, is quite skilled in medicine. Have him go and take a look at A-Heng!” As he spoke, he still felt uneasy and simply got out of bed to take a look for himself.
Unfortunately, he was too weak, and the illness had spread to his entire body. In addition to this, he had refused to take medicine at the start and missed the most critical time for treatment. At present, he was like a balloon that had been deflated. With each passing day, he was visibly getting thinner.
With this movement, his feet did reach the ground; however, who knew that his legs would not be able to keep him standing, as he directly fell to the ground. The soldier grabbed hold of him and supported him. At this time, he heard a voice speak up from behind him: “Many thanks, young comrade, I’ll take over from here!”