Chapter 108 - Trinity-Vision Of The Wolf
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Trinity
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Every breath I took brought a wave of pain and nausea. With the waves came visions. The visions were a jumbled mess of memories, some recent some not. I was confused and didn't know what was happening to me.
I saw Caleb and the others in the parking lot, then I saw Noah telling me that Reece didn't hesitate to rescue me. I saw Grantham and the others tying me to the chair to electrocute me, then Reece telling me he hated me. I saw Edmond telling me that I belonged with them and not my pack, then the visions went black and I heard Reece's voice telling me he was coming for me.
The constant contradiction of the memories was so confusing that it was making my head spin. But what I believed, or at least what I wanted to believe, was that Reece was telling the truth. And he was, wasn't he? He did come for me, didn't he? That wasn't just a dream was it?
I remember Reece coming to save me. I remember him breaking into the room with Noah and Vincent. I remember Reece killing Leslie and Caleb. He was fighting with Edmond and was being hurt when…when…
When I turned into a wolf! I turned into a wolf! And not only did I turn into a wolf I turned into a wolf that has magic.
What does this mean for me? Will I be accepted, or rejected? Sure, I have a wolf like everyone wanted. But I'm also not a full wolf, I'm also a witch and I have magic powers. Will anyone want a Luna like me?
I know there are some who wouldn't care. Like Juniper, Cedar, Paul, and Vincent. My family would love me still. But Reece, and everyone else, how would they react?
With all these worries running through my mind, the visions changed again. This time, I was standing in the clearing back home. The one where we have important pack meetings. The same clearing where Reece marked me.
I was standing on top of the round, white stone platform and I could feel the power radiating from it. It wasn't just white and reflecting the moonlight like it usually did. No, it was glowing like the moon itself.
As I stood there, staring at the sky above me, I felt like the power of the stone was coursing through my body. Breathing no longer hurt. A sense of peace and serenity was spreading throughout my body. I sensed someone in the clearing with me, but still I could feel nothing but peace.
I turned in the direction of the presence I felt. There I saw a tall, slim wolf. It wasn't as tall as the other wolves I had seen from the pack. Reece's, for example, stood over five feet tall with a head large enough to bite a man's head clean off.
This wolf however, while larger than a normal wolf, only stood around four or four and half feet tall. She was slim and her head was narrow. She was snow white in color with strange black and blue markings around her head and face.
The wolf in front of me seemed radiant. The white was glowing like a softly shining light. The blue marks gleaming with the reflected light. The eyes were a bright ice blue that, too, seemed luminescent. The blue almost looked like the sky just after sunset when compared to the bright radiance of the white on the rest of the wolf. And the white was like that of the full moon on the clearest of all nights.
Looking at the wolf I felt like I was looking at the embodiment of the full moon itself.
"Who are you?" I asked, a note of awe in my voice.
"I am you." The wolf answered in my voice, it was not the guttural grunts and barks I had expected to come from the wolf.
"I don't understand. What do you mean you are me?" My face showed the confusion I felt.
"I am you, and you are me. We are one in the same." She spoke in a calm, serene voice.
"But I have never had a wolf before." I crossed my arms in defiance at her words.
"I have always been inside of you. It just was not yet time for me to show myself."
"But now is the right time?" I asked her with a hint of sarcasm and pain filling my voice as I put my hands on my hips.
"I am sorry that you have had to suffer in my absence, but the experiences you have had will shape you into a better person, a better leader for your people because of it." She sounded as if she was indeed sincerely sorry.
"Which people would that be? The wolves or the Warlocks?" I was becoming defensive now, I didn't mean to, and I knew I was being rude, but I couldn't help it.
"You know where you belong." She said firmly, tilting her head to the side.
"Do I?"
"You've always known. It's why you've never tried to leave, and why you were always hurt when you were never included. You know you belong with the wolves. You are a wolf, first and foremost." Her voice was so commanding, so sure of itself.
"How do I know that though?" I seemed so uncertain, and doubtful in comparison.
"You see me standing here before you, do you not. I am your proof. I would not be here if you were not wolf enough to belong to the pack." Her words were reassuring, but still, I wasn't sure I should believe her.
"How am I to know that they won't shun me for what I am?" I crossed my arms, this time to hide myself as much as I could.
"They will not, they will see the power that lies in you for what it truly is."
"And what power is that?" I asked her, my curiosity peaked.
"Time will tell, young one, time will tell. There is much more power to what you have unlocked than you know. I ask that you work hard to try to understand it."
"How? How am I to do that?" I threw my arms out, I was using my hands to talk more now than I had done in a long time.
"Train. It is as simple as that. You must train yourself like you never have done before. As unbelievable as it may sound, try anything that may seem possible, even if it seems impossible."
"That makes no sense." I told her, confused.
"I know." She laughed. "But that is what it means to learn by experimentation. You don't know what powers you possess yet, and unless you try something new, you will not know them."
"Can't you just tell me what they are?" I begged her with my hands clasped in front of me.
"I am afraid I cannot, for they will be different for every person."
"What do you mean?" I was confused, were there others like me?
"Our time is up here. But remember, I am with you always, so never be afraid." I sensed a smile from her even though I could not see those exact motions on the wolf's face.
I watched as the wolf began to fade. The light in the clearing lessened immediately. It got darker and darker until, soon, all the light faded away entirely.