Chapter 51 - Chapter 51: I’ll Praise You Every Day From Now On
Chapter 51: I’ll Praise You Every Day From Now On
Translator: EndlessFantasy Translation Editor: EndlessFantasy Translation
Lin Xiaowan liked watching movies and dramas. Although she was not a professional, she still had some basic knowledge. She said, “Get a voice actor to dub over my voice? That won’t do. How can I not memorize the lines?”
“Does that mean you agree?” Gu Yuwu asked, trying to tamp down her excitement now that success was close at hand.
“I… I guess so,” Lin Xiaowan said awkwardly. In fact, she was quite interested in acting. In any case, it was all for fun. Just like how painting and singing were fun, acting was also fun.
However, after she impulsively agreed and calmed down, the more Lin Xiaowan thought about it, the more she doubted if she could do the job.
Although Gu Yuwu said the job was very simple and that there were not many lines, she knew that facial expressions and one’s gaze were very important in acting. Even some professionals who had taken acting classes were ridiculed for their bad acting. Then could someone like her, who had no experience at all, do it?
At the end of the day, what Lin Xiaowan lacked was confidence. She knew that a large part of it was due to her family and the environment she had grown up in. Although she tried her best to hide it, she could not get rid of her sense of inferiority.
She tried convincing herself not to care too much about other people’s opinions of her, and she had been doing well in the past few years. However, she was still afraid of being around a lot of people. It was still okay she could blend into the crowd and stay unnoticed, but if she were the center of attention, her mind would go blank and her heart would race. All she could was smile stiffly. She was a little afraid of being stared at.
In her previous life, due to her request, there were no guests at her wedding. There were only her, Huo Zheng, and the officiant.
The more Lin Xiaowan thought about it, the more she felt that she had made the wrong decision. She should not have agreed to Gu Yuwu’s request.
Lin Xiaowan sighed as her thoughts inexplicably drifted back to her marriage in her previous life. Once again, she felt that Huo Zheng was very good. He did not ask too many questions and would acquiesce to her requests. Thinking about it, she thought that she was a little unreasonable.
When Huo Zheng got home from work, he saw Lin Xiaowan curled up in the corner of the couch, looking depressed.
Upon seeing him, Lin Xiaowan threw the pillow in her arms away and said, “I want a hug.”
Huo Zheng knew that something must have happened when he was away. He strode over and bent down to pick her up.
Lin Xiaowan hugged his neck and rested her head on his shoulder.
Huo Zheng sat on the couch with her in his arms before he said gently, “Qingqing, you seem a little unhappy? Do you want to tell me what’s wrong?”
“It’s nothing serious…” Lin Xiaowan mumbled before she told him about Gu Yuwu’s request.
“Are you unhappy because of this matter? If you really don’t want to do it, you can still refuse. It’s not a big deal.”
“It’s not like that,” Lin Xiaowan said, feeling conflicted, “I’m just afraid I won’t be able to act well with everyone staring at me. At the same time, I want to be praised.”
Lin Xiaowan was afraid of being the center of attention, but she also liked people praising her.
“I don’t think I’m good enough, but at the same time, it’ll be a pity if I don’t do it,” Lin Xiaowan said softly and sighed, looking confused, “I really don’t know what I want either.”
It was a rare and precious opportunity to be able to try new things.
Huo Zheng chuckled and said gently, “It doesn’t matter. You should have a try. If you still feel that you’re not good enough after trying, you can speak to Gu Yuwu. She’s your friend after all. Friends should be understanding of each other, right? If you really feel like you don’t know how to tell her, just tell me, and I’ll talk to her.”
Lin Xiaowan nodded and said in a low voice, “I think I’ll do it. They don’t know me anyway. It doesn’t matter even if I don’t perform well.”
Huo Zheng thought about it for a moment before he said, “Let’s just take it one step at a time and set a small goal for yourself. You said that all you needed to do was sit there, right? Then let’s just focus on that. Then, you’ll deal with the rest as they come.”
Lin Xiaowan sighed and said, “Alright.
Huo Zheng kissed her forehead and said, “I’m sure you’ll be amazing.”
Lin Xiaowan looked at him with a grin and hugged him tightly as she said, “I really like it when you praise me!”
In fact, Lin Xiaowan’s contradictory personality of wanting to be noticed and praised but also afraid of being noticed was partly due to her sense of inferiority. She needed a lot of love and adoration, and she needed constant encouragement from people around her. These were things she had always desired.
However, she had never been loved or cared for, and she was also despised by her family since she was young. Not only that, but the people around her also liked to stare at her and gossip about her. As time went on, she grew more and more timid and also felt inferior. She always felt like people disliked her. That was why she was afraid of being around a lot of people.
Huo Zheng looked at her smiling face and smiled as well. “Then, I’ll praise you every day in the future.”
The Huo family raised their children by giving them a lot of encouragement. Huo Cheng and Huo Zheng grew up under constant encouragement and praise. This was also the case for Huo Dabao and Huo Erbao.
For example, when the two children came downstairs in the morning for breakfast, Huo Cheng and Huo Zheng would praise them for changing their clothes on their own.
In the past, Huo Zheng treated Lin Xiaowan like a normal person. She had always been sensible so he did not think that there was anything wrong with her. However, now that there was no longer any misunderstanding or estrangement between them, he realized that she was in fact very naive and lacked confidence.
Seeing that Lin Xiaowan was now in a better mood, Huo Zheng changed the topic and asked her about the new nanny.
Lin Xiaowan quite liked the nanny who came over today and told Huo Zheng about it. Her surname was Wu, and she had a 14-year-old daughter at home. She was friendly and had a good personality. She used to work in the cafeteria of a kindergarten. All in all, she was gentle and efficient.
“Alright, as long as you like it.”
After that, Huo Zheng led Lin Xiaowan to the kitchen.
“What did the chef cook today?”
Lin Xiaowan’s unhappiness seemed to vanish as soon as food was mentioned.
“There’s yogurt salad shrimp. I secretly tried one earlier! It was delicious!”
“Is that so? Then, I’ll try it too…” Huo Zheng said as he brought her to the sink, “Wash your hands first..”